We went to the grocery store yesterday and Wes and Madeline had their first car cart ride together! Despite the serious faces in that first photo they both enjoyed it. Madeline could probably stand to have a tad more personal space in her life, but she can be pretty tolerant. I’m so glad she was tolerant yesterday because watching her brother put his arm around her and then go in for a little kiss made me a little teary right there in the grocery store. My sweet children.
One of our neighbors has a fancy camera and every now and then he catches our family (and other families…but we have the babies and it’s hard to resist taking pictures of babies, right?) at the right moment and takes some pictures to share with us.
I love this picture. I wish I could remember what Wes was saying. More often then not, if you approach us in our yard this is how Wes greets you. He’s got something serious to tell you and he’s going to cross his arms about it. I think this is a Sean mannerism.
I couldn’t decide which of these Madeline portraits I liked best. I will miss when I can’t just plop her down in the grass anymore. It doesn’t last for too long, but there are moments when we’re outside and Madeline is fine sitting and observing and Wes is fine digging a hole, foundation, ant house, what have you in my garden and I can just sit without any children on me. Of course I like hugging and kissing and having them on me, but it’s nice to just be too.
Who is this man child?! Is this my 3.5 year old or a teenager?!
That’s Wes’s jackhammer. A important for hole, foundation, ant house, what have you digging.
Sweet, right? It is sweet. Really it is. But watch as it becomes less of a hug and more of a forced re-positioning.
I titled this “An Afternoon…” but really you can find us just like this most afternoons that the weather allows. In the mornings we try to go somewhere, but in the afternoons between nap time and dinner prep, it’s nice to stay close to home. I always thought of myself as an indoor girl, but it turns out I really crave being outside. So does Wes now. Hopefully Madeline does too, but we’ll see. The fresh air is so good for us. I’m so happy to have these pictures that make just our normal everyday afternoon look a little more special.
I search “second date salmon” on this blog pretty often and it always surprises me that I come up with nothing. Second date salmon is our special occasion go-to. We make it for anniversaries, birthdays, and for friends when we entertained at night more. So when I requested it for my birthday the other week and again searched “second date salmon” and again was surprised it wasn’t already recorded here, I decided to remedy the situation.
On our second date, Sean suggested we tour the Embassies. They have an open house day every year. What a great suggestion, I thought. Who is this guy? We did that for a little bit. It wasn’t quite as fun as we hoped but we weren’t ready for the date to end so we played pool.
We played best out of three, maybe, and the loser had to cook dinner. Sean lost. Sean’s really good at pool. He will not admit to swinging the game. Sean’s really good at pool.
So we went to Whole Foods where, without looking at his phone once or skipping a beat or displaying any hesitation, he pulls all of these ingredients into his basket. Who is this guy?
Sean worked at a restaurant called TenPenh in college. TenPenh was so great. I went there with my parents during a restaurant week and had my first experience with Som. The three of us picked very different dishes and that Som picked the exact right one for all of us! It was amazing! Anyway, Sean ate their salmon dish and wanted to recreate it at home. So he worked at it and worked at it and finally got it. To be fair he’s still working on it. He switched from green beans on the side to baby bok choy not that long ago.
So on our second date we eat this very delicious and amazing dish that Sean whips up without ever looking at a recipe. Who is this guy?
The man I get to call my husband now. Who makes this really great dish twice or three times a year. It’s my favorite food ritual in our family.
Second date salmon is wasabi mashed potatoes, spicy Szechuwan baby bok choy (but originally green beans), salmon, and hoisin butter sauce. Garnished with as many black and white sesame seeds and chives as your heart desires (and in Sean’s case, that’s a lot).
The other week a play date canceled at the last minute and Madeline slept way late (why can’t our children sleep in together…and on the weekend?). I packed it in during the morning for Wes so he’d nap and after lunch we headed to a nature center. This nature center has everything a playground, a pond, and a building with animals.
It was a really nice time initially. We played on the playground, put together the puzzles in the nature center, saw the baby turtles there too, and ventured around the pond.
We’d intended one last play on the playground before heading home, but I mentioned this was after lunch. So Wes was tired. Sometimes I wonder if I should give more allowance to defiance that happens when he’s tired and I’m the reason. He really should have been at home but I was pushing for a) a nap (not just quiet time) and b) to start that nap at the same time as Madeline’s. But then there’s that look. You’ve given me instruction, Momma, and I heard you but I’m going to half smile at you as I stick my toe over the line as little as possible to make sure you’re serious.
I could stand to be more consistent, but this time I was serious. Because I hate that half smile. So we went home. Crying child all the way to car and all.
When it comes to parenthood, why doesn’t winning always feel good? I set the boundary, it was crossed, I reinforced the rule. That’s a win! I did the hard thing. I was unwavering. Why doesn’t it feel better? Why does it feel like I still lost a little? Especially when there’s a child crying all the way to the car. Why doesn’t it feel like I made progress toward the end goal? What is the end goal here exactly? Am I meeting it? I really have to wait 20, 30 years to find out?
In the short term I didn’t even accomplish the goal of a nap. So long term, I’m really holding out hope for you. That the combination of these difficult moments really will matter.
When I picked the playroom carpet for this project it was mostly for ease. I also had the thought, oh, she’s a girl I’ll probably put her in pink all the time so there’ll be a nice contrast. There’s some pink in this project, but so much blue. I guess I should have realized that. Everyone in our family wears so much blue (and I’m mostly in charge of everyone’s clothes). I’m also surprised that I’m just now really getting into bows. I know there are few in earlier pictures, but it hasn’t been until recently that I’ve put her in a bow to go out in public. I thought I’d be all over bows from day 1.
Madeline has two favorite things to drag her little body to these days. First, to any parent sitting on the ground. She wants your hands so she can work on pulling up. Second, to the piano. She’ll sit and look at it and then at you. Because she loves banging on it. Her little face the first she she banged on it and it made a noise was the best.
I turned 35 on Saturday the 2nd, and we started the day off right with cake. Yes, same cake, new year.
Remember last year I did it with Wes and he dropped an egg on the floor and it was kind of frustrating? This year I did it myself in phases at night. It just worked better because of more days in preschool and Madeline’s schedule. I kind of missed him! Dropped egg and all! Oh, life! We ate that cake for breakfast all the way through Tuesday!
Sean and I got a date night in Saturday night. We hadn’t been on a date since New Orleans and so we were ready! We had one set of plans that really needed good weather to work. It seems as though the rain will not stop here! So we switched plans at the very last minute and it worked out so well!
Sean ended up with a beef carpaccio appetizer the size of his head!
And I got sushi which made me so happy. Sean doesn’t like sushi so we never go for sushi. I might have a craving now and I’m not sure how I’ll solve that problem.
That’s it for pictures. In some ways I’m still getting back into the habit of telling the story. I personally think the story is a little better with pictures, but sometimes it’s hard to take the pictures when you’re busy living the moment.
It was a good birthday, but I’m feeling a little sad about birthdays this year. This is the first year where I’m feeling…different, weird, older, I’m not quite sure about my age. This year Wes will be 4 and that’s very much a wow age for me. I’ve never been unhappy to see him get a little older and now I’m like whoa! 4! What’s next, college? And Madeline completes our family and so our last child who will have a 1st birthday, which is more bittersweet than I imagined. I can’t wait for children to turn 1 normally. So I guess what I’m saying is 35 is the first official year when life started to move to quickly. And it feels weird.
Just yesterday Madeline started to do peek-a-boo herself. She got her hands on her sleep sack and immediately got to hiding. It’s so cute! This week she also started to get herself into a seated position. We say “yay!” and sometimes she claps for herself. It’s so cute! She’s still dragging her body around and she frequently can be found dragging her body to wherever she hears Wes’s voice or any other commotion. We must investigate, Momma!
Wes has had this list for the last little while. “We need to go to the zoo, the beach, and the farm,” he says. Not so much to be annoying but enough to be memorable. I think Curious George’s influence? We bought a membership to the National Zoo last month and on Memorial Day Weekend we checked off that first item.
We got there bright and early, which was a good way to go. We arrived around 8:20 and left around 11. It was a much different zoo at 11. It was nice to have some time in a less crowded space.
Some of the animals are still having breakfast or sleeping at 8:20. We were still delighted with our visit and the timing.
It was bright. Some of these pictures looked awesome in my camera….
That’s a sleeping wolf, sleeping ducks, seals, and barely-made-it-into-the-picture-but-very-awake otters. I didn’t realize ducks would be at the zoo, which was perfect because Wes asked about them specifically on the drive there!
We did not talk about this trip with Wes before hand. We decided just the night before after everyone was tucked in tight that we would go. So I walked into his room in the morning and explained we were getting dressed right away because we were going to the zoo! He laughed his sweet little laugh and was so off the wall excited until he started to crash around 10:45. Usually I like to share in the anticipation of the event, but this time it was nice to surprise him.
Tigers, their roar is no joke! This tiger was hungry and was pacing around for food, and that roar would be so scary without a fence.
Wes and I rode the carousel as one of our last activities before leaving. Remember almost two years ago when Wes didn’t enjoy the carousel ride? He loved it this time! It was so fun to be his carousel buddy. We should have gone again because we can do that as members…next time.
Wes still lets me dress him and I picked his one animal shirt for this outing. I wasn’t sure if there would be turtles at the zoo but I’m so glad they were there. I can’t wait to go to the zoo again. It was so much fun!
Madeline is desperate to crawl. Actually, she’s desperate to walk. She’s been desperate to move as much as possible since her vision became more focused and she saw all the fun that Wesley was having on two feet. She wants in. She is working so hard to get in. She does that thing that babies do. That thing where they get on all fours and rock back and forth. She does that for a bit and then collapses and drags her little body to whatever has caught her eye. I think she’s desperate to walk because sometimes she does downward dog instead of collapsing and dragging her body. Do lots of babies do this? Madeline’s the only of our two babies that has.